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Apron Days

Lindsey Smallwood

Last night as I changed into my pajamas I found all of the following on some part of my clothes or person:

  • peanut butter
  • cheerios
  • toothpaste
  • sweet potatoes
  • mud
  • diaper rash cream
  • yogurt (made distinctive from the diaper cream only by smell)
  • cheddar cheese
  • non-descript green substance yet-to-be-determined

Just, yeah. 

Motherhood is messy.

But some days are apron days.

On apron days, I take special care in choosing my clothes, applying my makeup, and fixing my hair, then I put an apron to keep myself looking spiffy. On apron days, I usually have plans to go on a date or meet up with a friend or take myself out to coffee. On apron days, I feel expectant and excited. On apron days, I remind myself that there's more to life - and to me - than changing diapers and sweeping floors. 

I like apron days.

But motherhood isn't the only thing that's messy. Life can be pretty messy too.

You fumble an important conversation with a friend.

You worry about the outcome of an assignment at work.

Someone forgets to follow through on what you asked them to do.

A lie is told. 

A promise is broken.

Sometimes it's easy to feel dirtied by the messiness of life - weighed down by regret or fear or disappointment. But rather than getting stuck in the mess of a sin-weary world, we ought to "clothe ourselves with the presence of the Lord Jesus Christ." (Romans 13:14)

It's good news, friends. Jesus offers us an apron day for the soul. No longer covered in the stains of heartache and failure and worry, instead we're invited to "put on Christ" (Galatians 3:26) and let Him hold the hard stuff for us. 

It's a promise I'm learning to live into. Rather than take all of it on myself, more and more I want to trust my trials and burdens and struggles to hands much more capable than mine.

Today is an apron day. 

As I tie the strings around my neck, I'm reminding myself to embrace the precious truth that Jesus wraps me in his righteousness, His right way of being, and stands ready to protect me here in my mess.

And that expectant excitement I have about going to book club tonight? Because of Jesus, I can choose to live into that feeling more and more every day, knowing that He is redeeming every messy part of my life.

I'm meditating on this verse:

You guys, will you join me? There's joy here!

Believe this good news - whatever mess you're living in, Jesus wants to wrap you in His righteousness. 

It's a promise even better than an apron day.